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I wanted to say
I love you.

I used to always ask my best friends
how they knew when they were in love
but with you,
I just somehow knew
and now I understand what it means
to wish to drown someone
yet save them at the same time.

I wanted to say it out loud
but I didn’t want you to think I was crazy
and I didn’t want to give you even more power
control me
when you are on your way
to owning me.

If love is the answer, what is the question?” // M.D.L (via mingdliu)
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i. I told myself I was weak because I couldn’t hold up dumbbells for too long and this guy at work said I would never be strong enough since I started with only five pounds instead of anything heavier.

ii. My father told me I was weak because I didn’t eat enough protein to build muscles and mother said I was weak because I didn’t know how to think for myself or be a lady. But God, I am strong. I am so damn strong and they do not even know nor do they understand the weight I carry around every single day.

iii. The weight of heavy thoughts I can’t seem to get out of my mind like where do I stand in this life, who am I meant to be? I worry about the grades and the job I choose won’t be a career. Adults think that children and teenagers have it so easy but they do not remember what it’s like to go through your life and not knowing who to be and what to do in the next few years. They don’t understand how sometimes blades are people’s best friends and how much media dictates our every move.

iv. So I am here to tell you this, I am not some weak female who cannot lift tools at the gym. I am stronger than you will ever know because there were so many incidents when the voices in my head tried to convince me to give up, to let go, to sleep and never wake up but every single morning when my alarm rings I force myself out of bed.

v. And I smile. I smile even when there’s a s snow storm outside and school is still going. I am still going. Don’t you dare point your fingers at me and tell me I am too weak for my own good.

vi. I am too fucking strong and if you cannot see that, then you are the weak one.

"They call me easy and weak too often." // M.D.L (via mingdliu)
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There’s nothing like the moon high in the sky
to remind you that it’s going to be alright.
I don’t get to see many stars in New York City
so when I see a night sky filled with them,
it eases me.

I’d rather count stars than the things
I find wrong with myself, or my own problems.
They say count your blessings but as I grow older,
I forget to pray on most nights.

My brother said he’d rather make people happy
rather than be happier, himself.
I said I couldn’t.
I would never be that good hearted;
as important as it is to be kind to others,
it is just as important to be nice to yourself.
I think I’ve sacrificed a good portion of my own smiles
to satisfy others in the past,
and I don’t have that much time to waste on pleasing them anymore.

Some nights I cry.
Some nights I cannot shed a tear.
Some nights I cannot sleep.

I am awake with the moon,
wasting time until the sun rises to start a new day.
And I keep hoping that a new dawn will bring me a new beginning,
I keep hoping maybe all my worries and problems
will disappear but I know that will never be true.

Night will hit once more,
and it is the same routine all over again.

A Story A Day #239 by M.D.L

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Once I start
building a home
for someone in my heart,
I will not stop
until the roof prevents hurricanes
and the walls are stronger
than the third pig’s brick house.
I will finish decorating the rooms
and fill each corner
with all of the love I hold.
So here I am,
still trying to finish up the place
I’ve spent all my strength
and time into building
just to see that you have
found another home.
But listen
this door will always be open for you.

BLISTERS by M.D.L

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I want to pace down open roads in the middle of the day. During the time the sun is still so high in the sky so I know I am not alone. I like to know that there is more out there than just me and you. Even the moon looks lonely sometimes when it’s surrounded by stars.
I want to love someone and be loved in return but I only seem to find one or the other. One day I want to find both of them hidden between the sunrise and the sunset. 
And I hope it’s eternal.
- A Story A Day #173 by M.D.L

I want to pace down open roads in the middle of the day. During the time the sun is still so high in the sky so I know I am not alone. I like to know that there is more out there than just me and you. Even the moon looks lonely sometimes when it’s surrounded by stars.

I want to love someone and be loved in return but I only seem to find one or the other. One day I want to find both of them hidden between the sunrise and the sunset. 

And I hope it’s eternal.

- A Story A Day #173 by M.D.L

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Anonymous asked:

What's the most motivating piece of advice you've ever been given, or quote you have read?

mingdliu answered:

The summer I turned 16, my cousin in law told me, “Do not dwell on things that make you angry. When you are so angry, it consumes all your energy and you will be left tired and unable to focus on what matters. If something makes you upset, there is no point in holding onto all of it. It will only hurt you, not anyone else. You won’t get anything out of it. And if someone makes you upset, don’t stay mad because the person who hurt you doesn’t care so why should you care so much?”

And that is literally one of the most important things anyone’s ever said to me.

xo

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Anonymous asked:

What's on your bucket list?

mingdliu answered:

Do you seriously want to know this ultra long list? Haha here goes nothing (in no particular order):

  1. Horseback riding
  2. Go on a real roller coaster
  3. Kiss in the rain
  4. Make cotton candy
  5. Make ice cream with the bucket thing
  6. Go to Greece
  7. Eat pizza in Italy
  8. Write in front of the Eiffel Tower
  9. Take a photograph in front of a red phone booth in London
  10. Feed kangaroos in Australia
  11. Publish a book
  12. Have a novel turned into a movie
  13. Meet Taylor Swift
  14. Own cowboy boots
  15. Swim with dolphins
  16. Maybe learn how to swim first
  17. Learn how to drive
  18. Be completely happy with myself at some point
  19. Skiing
  20. Ice skating
  21. Rock climbing
  22. Fall in love
  23. Be loved back
  24. Inspire/change someone’s life
  25. Fly in a hot air balloon
  26. Meet someone in real life from online
  27. Watch the sunrise
  28. And then the sunset on the same day
  29. See the Northern lights
  30. Witness a solar eclipse
  31. Stargazing
  32. Ride on the back of a pick up truck
  33. First kiss
  34. $500 shopping spree
  35. Plant a garden
  36. Own a kitten
  37. And a puppy
  38. Road trip
  39. Go on a blind date
  40. Try speed dating
  41. Be on TV
  42. See a waterfall
  43. Bake cute cupcakes for someone special
  44. Stagecoach, Cali
  45. Fly a kite
  46. Vacation with my best friend(s)
  47. Try being a vegetarian
  48. Have a picnic
  49. See a lighthouse
  50. Ride a helicopter
  51. See a volcano
  52. Go on a cruise
  53. Visit a castle
  54. Have a beautiful relationship (one day)
  55. Adopt a child/children
  56. Donate a large sum of money to charity
  57. Teach abroad
  58. Do charity in Africa
  59. Go to a party like Gatsby
  60. Go fishing
  61. Shoot a gun
  62. Donate blood
  63. Skinny dipping
  64. Wear a bikini
  65. Love my body completely
  66. Ride an elephant
  67. And a camel
  68. Top of the Rock
  69. Visit every continent
  70. Ride the bull
  71. Watch a broadway play
  72. Graduate college
  73. Walk up the stairs to the Statue of Liberty
  74. Sleep under the stars
  75. Build a snowman
  76. Have a real snowball fight
  77. Go to the zoo
  78. Visit a farm
  79. Learn archery
  80. Ride the back of a motorcycle
  81. Washington D.C
  82. Disneyland, Florida
  83. Experience a white Christmas
  84. Attend a ball or gala
  85. Rooftop party
  86. Buy the person behind me in line a cup of coffee
  87. Beach bonfire
  88. Make real smores
  89. Camping
  90. See a Safari
  91. Make a scrapbook
  92. Bungee jumping
  93. Walk down a tall building in Canada
  94. Meet someone lovely in a coffee shop
  95. Knit a scarf
  96. Hot cocoa on top of a mountain
  97. Dye my hair
  98. Paint balling
  99. Get contacts
  100. Go hiking
  101. Zip lining
  102. Drink in an ice bar
  103. Float in the dead sea
  104. Ride a ferris wheel
  105. Walk a bridge
  106. Kayaking
  107. Stay in the underwater hotel
  108. Stand on top of a mountain
  109. Send a message in a bottle
  110. See the great pyramids
  111. See a shooting star
  112. Grand Canyon
  113. Lake Tahoe
  114. Wake up in Vegas
  115. Have a picnic
  116. Parasailing
  117. Ride in a cop car
  118. See the stone henge
  119. Get a henna tattoo
  120. Write poems for my best friends
  121. Kiss with pop rocks
  122. Attend prom
  123. Apple picking
  124. Carve a pumpkin
  125. Hit on a total random stranger
  126. Get a super glowy tan one summer
  127. Vacation on a tropical island
  128. Clubbing
  129. Walk through a rain forest
  130. Milk a cow
  131. Hold a snake
  132. Explore a cave
  133. Watch turtles hatch
  134. Ride on a ship
  135. And a boat
  136. Witness a breathtaking sunset
  137. Go to six flags
  138. And Hershey Park
  139. Outdoor movies
  140. Drive in movies
  141. Dip my toes in the Great Lakes
  142. Pull an all nighter
  143. Camp on a beach
  144. Pet a giraffe
  145. Own a house
  146. Walk the Great Wall
  147. Visit all 50 states
  148. Whale watching
  149. 7 wonders of the world
  150. Go to a concert
  151. Masquerade ball
  152. Go to a circus
  153. Play 7 minutes in heaven
  154. Visit the great barrier reef
  155. Kiss underwater
  156. Watch the tree light up 
  157. Watch the ball drop
  158. Write a song
  159. Stay in a beach house
  160. Throw a coin into a wishing fountain
  161. Sing karaoke
  162. Watch fireworks
  163. Read the Bible
  164. Find a career
  165. Kiss under the mistletoe
  166. Have a real valentine

This is rather long but there are a few more that’s on an older list haha :)

xo